So this whole last year of college thing is kicking my butt.

Not that I'm overloaded with projects and papers and presentations i mean come on now i'm a Rec Major. It's not that I'm living in an off campus apartment and I have to try to figure out a way to pay the bills every month. And its not even that Nate's so far away.

Trying to figure out what I'm going to do after I graduate is killing me. I don't know what to do where to go what to be (well obviously I'll be me but you know what I mean). I don't know what I want. I don't want to go some place just to go, without a vision or a purpose. I don't want to be safe either, but i want to be comfortable. I want to actually enjoy what I'm doing and where I am. I'm plagued with worries and doubts. I don't want to fail, I don't want to make a wrong decision. I just don't know and I'm not okay with that, I need direction. I've been so apathetic lately about God and everything I'm just at a stand still with God. I just feel like I'm sinking lower and lower and I'm trying to do it all on my own (damn haven't i already been through this you'd think i'd learn my lesson). I need prayer. I need help.

I just felt the need to update its been awhile...

I've been at the beach now for  i think 4 weeks... I'm starting to hit that worn out point right now. I've worked the last 11 days straight...which is normal i guess you could say except for the part of helping with the running of outdoor ed and making sure that all is going well with that. It's definitely a challenge to try and gather 100+ students around and get them all quite either by yourself or with Adam. It's a bit draining. But other than that Outdoor Ed is going great! I absolutely love it its one of my favorite parts of the summer. I've been teaching the group challenge class which is a blast. Seeing students who might not speak up about an idea they have or having a team finally figure out what it takes to be a team is just so awesome and so rewarding! I love it...we have a group of 150 students coming in on Wednesday, thankfully more staff will  be here so that's nice, but still it's going to be pretty intense.

Amanda's come up here and there for a couple of days which it's always good to hang out with her. 

Thursday Night the new Pirates movie came out which of course if you haven't seen on facebook yet prompted my friends to dress up like pirates and go watch the movie. We had a good time, I kind of got tired and really wished i didn't have to be a pirate anymore...because again if you've seen the pictures...there's are reason why i was called Captain Hooker... Anyway the movie was alright I had a pretty bad migraine so all that shooting and music didn't make me super happy and the bloody air-conditioning was right over top of us and i was freezing so my night wasn't that enjoyable...but oh well there's a high price to pay to look that hot. KIDDING! So that was Thursday night.

Friday was a good day too woke up around 9:30 and went down to the office got a little bit of work done then went to my nephew's varsity regional championship baseball game in Elyria...which HE WON!! so they are on their way to state in Columbus next week which is so super exciting!


So really that's all i've been doing...oh besides driving to new york and going to the adirondacks for a class..which was spectacular and totally refreshing! I stopped by the Falls on my way back through was was spectacular. The drive was probably the best part 8 hours of no one really bothering me and i could just relax and do what i love doing (driving) and it was great.


well I'm off i have a lot of stuff that I have to get done today...grrr...oh well. Graduation Parties today then tomorrow Dustin graduates from High School...which makes me feel just a little bit old. My oldest nephew graduating from high school already. Which makes me remember how much fun Kali, Dustin and I had when we were little, not to say that we don't know but it of course is different...with college and work and everything that we have going on in our lives its just not the same as it used to be, ah well I guess thats all part of growing up.